Seasons, 2014

"Matter is to us as a shadow of a tree is to a tree. Matter looks like the shadow of something real, and for the indigenous mind, the thing from which the shadow originates is more interesting than the shadow itself. I cannot look at myself and think that I am seeing the real thing, for a shadow cannot be the source of itself. " 

Chain Reaction

Painting again recently, I'm tempted to write about my Vikki as it is what spurs my inspiration to do what I do in painting and in life.  Many times people ask for what is behind my paintings and work I do with others. It's a lot of life experiences, but I feel like Vikki is the rock and my long term reaction. 

Vikki and I met when I was in northern Guatemala. Strong girl, happy spirit and wonderful being.  She was at an orphanage medical clinic where I was working when I met her. Abandoned and abused, I took care of her the best I could. Her 3 year old body was a mess, her back she could barely move. Every morning I would wake up and take the bus ride to see her and others. Her and I had a special connection that I will never forget. When I arrived it was heartwarming the big hugs she gave and how happy she was.  She was very sick and I knew she did not have long.  We still managed to have a lot of fun. 

She passed a little after I left that trip. This experience spearheaded my life goals and mission. It has made me the strongest person I can be. I believe we have angels, and she's my heaven in this wild place.  

Never forget- Do work that you love, and you will never work another day in your life. 

Telling stories

Fables, 2014

In abstract paintings there is not much story to see but it is to be felt. As the artist I believe it's fun to let the viewer create their own meaning- leave it to faith they leave feeling something and thinking something new. Questioning. Always have more questions than answers. A world with all answers is a world not explored. Always question what you know for sure.

Id like to believe I could produce something useful for this world to see, like how others have children.

As Richter says, " It's an attempt at self- protection- saying that I was indifferent, that I didn't care. I was afraid my pictures would be too sentimental. But I don't mind admitting that I paint pictures of my failures. "

Daydream, 2014

Pretty in Pink  2014

Beginning Painting lessons

I began painting again this weekend and how I have missed it. Staying up late, working all day... it becomes a fever. It is something I believe that comes natural but necessary. Something that we draw inspirations from that we cannot express unless tempted with a palette. 

I worked combining oils and house paint.  Soon I will hope to incorporate figures. 

Razor Without, 2014

 Playing with light

I painted today using chance as a theme and method. I have this large piece of wood I recently found and Ive also been utilizing some old house paint- I like it. Using discarded objects to give them new purpose I enjoy. 

Im almost finished with Richters book, September.  In it regarding painting he writes "Above all, its never a blind chance. Its a chance that is always planned, but also always surprising. And I need it in order to carry on, in order to eradicate my mistakes, to destroy what Ive worked out wrong, to introduce something different and disruptive. Im often astonished to find how much better chance is than I."

Sumersault, 2014